My last little guy turned two at the end of September.  I was struggling with him turning two, realizing I don’t have a baby anymore but now a lot of big kids and a toddler! I know there always comes a time in a mother’s life where she stops having children. I know many other women have felt these conflicting feelings of grief at what I won’t have again (to be pregnant and nursing) mingled in with a relief of sorts and an excitement about moving away from sleepless nights and diapers.  Jonah could not be more precious. He is a boy with his kicking and throwing and jumping but he is very gentle and loves to sit and cuddle with me.  He still has his paci, lovey and bear and since he is the last baby in our family, I don’t have any plans of pushing him to get rid of it.  I will let him be little as long as I can.